To romance, but can not confirm his lost love
derailed today from just three days, I would not dream of being in this short three-day there will be such a dramatic thing.
7 Friday night, the husband As always, take me home to the company, the company downstairs, when I met selling chestnuts, and I especially want to eat, to pestering her husband to buy me, the day her husband a little unusual, throw off my hand and undaunted, I thought He was afraid the door in fear of our acquaintance I am sorry to see, but also made fun of when he learned to be shy. That night he was back online, I went to accompany her in-laws in the living room watching TV, go to the toilet when passing glance, a word jumped into the eyes: I also eat chestnuts, but also to eat you!
hard to describe feelings at the time, gripped really is, severe heart, to the bathroom I tried to calm down, long after the mother called me, I tried to pack a good themselves out. he was still online, mother blame him one, he gave vague, after ten minutes came out to watch TV. sat next to me and pinch a bit me, grinning.
watched for some time and his father with her husband talked about some things work, see if they talk about speculation, I suddenly thought of my husband and chat with that person, an excuse to go to change clothes, to your room and locked the door, and her husband heard the outside door lock voices also call the sentence: Why do the door locked, ah, the old couple's out.
computer did not pass, very fast heartbeat, her husband did not shut QQ, I dug out the last contact, one look at the past, a called the water, the identification is complete!
purple: I am, there is also a body of water!
Husband: I touch.
Purple: roll.
husband: such nonsense not allowed to know the future?
purple: how, and afraid that I hurt ** (my name) ah? pained her? Oh hh
Husband: Do not say, you know I can not.
Violet: I know, I just want to see to see what she looks like.
husband: you almost make me scared to death today know?
Purple: I do not care, do you buy her chestnut today, I have to!
Husband: How much you want I gave you.
Purple: Hey, that should you do?
husband: COME ON. tube does his chestnuts.
Violet: I will eat the chestnuts, but also to eat you!
hh
while spinning.
husband shouted at me several times during the name probably makes me go out, I guess he was afraid that I think he chats it. I deliberately wardrobe and off, tears but could not stop the fall, was no makeup, for fear that I spent a vertical straight face makeup to let the tears fall.
and her husband got married three years, the feelings between us has been very good very good, I never have not doubted his in-laws do like me, and I think this kind of thing would not happen to me, but a sudden, it so to, and chats from their view, have occurred in the relationship.
I still can not believe. My husband has been calling me, come knock on the door, I hasten to heal myself, put on clothes came out, they did not find me anything, everyone is watching TV, is Zhao's sketches playback, in-laws, and he laughed very happy and I Peizhao Xiao, and my heart was trembling.
night I like nothing happened, went to bed at night he finished washing over the bed, holding the sound of my wife I said good night sleep. I have endured heartache, over and over again to tell myself to hold back some to hold back, after all, in-laws can not be broke at home, but the body has been shaking, her husband, what about that from the I asked how do you hold back, and he touched the pillow found in wet to turn on the light to ask me how a concern.
I had to desperately hold on, said nothing to work today met with some unhappy things, biting his lips desperately, has been shaking, he panicked, holding I keep asking how I was.
home at this time the phone rang, her mother was still in the kitchen (her in-laws have the habit of sleep at night) then to the father-feet of hot water, I pick up the phone, not pick up the phone, the phone hung up, my father out of bed quickly, and I wear unlined, side said how so late ramble also calling. husband came out, he might be wrong, and followed her husband on the bedroom hall phone rang, her mother came out from the kitchen, said: every day is busy, this time a telephone.
husband went to answer the phone, the sound pressure is very low I could not hear clearly, father standing in the doorway, said: Come to bed, do not they get up tomorrow morning.
that time I suddenly Special do not want the door, the usual this time I was never to care about who gave him the phone, but today I suddenly think, is that purple call.
pretend I heard nothing into the room, her husband said, : Do not trouble, I'm off the computer. Having put the phone to shut. and then told me a little under the company's contradictions, and then let me sleep.
I will be given at him, he suddenly felt very strange, my mind suddenly emerge some careful of the screen, tears came out straight.
I asked: I feel I should clear everything fishes, at least have some initiative yourself, but there is no way, would have been exported, and her husband froze a moment, then is silent. It is March, the night is still cold, I wear unlined helpless standing there, put the Buddha is my own and not like him derailed.
word and then he said I almost collapsed, sighing loudly, he said: ah you know.
Although I already know, but look at him personally admit that I have collapsed the whole person.
faster then what I forgot, I did not sleep that night, he kept the explanation that only a one-night stand that woman is her edge it has been pestering him. I had a down coat batch has been sitting on the sofa to the interpretation of such a stop watch he kept the explanation, he explained tired and went down the kitchen water to drink, watching him drink that I suddenly felt nauseous and the cup, it was Chinese New Year when I gave him a mug of Vientiane, I felt especially good-looking to buy a gave him, now that he kissed another woman on the lips goes touch When the cup, the cup on the tainted.
to the morning so I calmed down, said her in-laws at home are now more things I do not want to interfere, you let me cool down.
to this day Early in the morning I went to work overtime, and give rice to go home and somehow, in fact, there are no units of anything, but I probably want to go to escape, to take the initiative to ask to work overtime.
did not take all day to his phone.
have no appetite at noon, saw through the window downstairs that is still selling chestnuts was particularly felt fear, because the woman had been here on Friday afternoon, in a I invisible corner of the peep my life, I was unconscious and looked back, as if there is a woman behind him, while I do not pay attention when ready to strangle me.
night I was at a friend's house, do not want to home about nine, her mother phoned and asked me when I go home Let me come to the father with some cigarette holder, and I said to go back later. mother said to get her husband to pick up the channel asked me, do not get too late unsafe.
Ten minutes later turned out that her husband called to let me go home, and asked where I came to pick me, I said after the address has been waiting for him to come. Soon he had to drive over and see Pushing the familiar white Buick car I suddenly look very reluctant to get on the train, like whether the woman sitting on the car, or even do anything in this car.
fantasy annoying people unable to extricate themselves, and I standing in front of the bus has been trance, he hugged me back a way you do, what not to say that we talk about home. was disappointing not tear down, and I pushed him cold to get in the car go.
everyone in the car began to silence, to the downstairs and he parked the car, do not get off, suddenly said: I am a showdown with her, we broke up, then I will not be with her, please You forgive me, I really was wrong.
mind after I heard the feeling of not much, just think how things would so like a fool I was kept in the dark, when they started, has had several relationships, and so the details to take out one by one.
I did not care for him, directly on the floor. That night I had some fever, drowsily, it is so early in sleep, Then a dramatic scene, so I still have some staggering things, so there.
Yesterday morning I was sleeping, my husband found me a fever, a volume of surprised, burn 39. was to quickly get up rummaging through the looking for drugs, in-laws have to get up, side kicks do not take good care of her husband these days, I let my illness, but also look for anti-fever medication side. not find her husband went downstairs to buy medicine, the mother sat on my bed, distressed looked at me and said I work too hard. I was also particularly sad, watching the old man's face pained, I side with the side of comfort that no major problems.
during her husband's cell phone rang several times, all SMS sound, I ignored, direct telephone came to the last, her mother said it might be time someone let me answer it, I took to watch, shows a male customer's name, I know this person, her husband often referred to It is a very close business customers, I easily picked up, not to speak, I heard a woman's voice said: You came down and let me see my side of good, you come down, let me see one last time to side of you? good or bad?
I immediately understand how the matter, did not react at once.
her husband outside the phone sounds great, her mother heard it, both mother-and daughter stared to read such a time around. My tears fell down.
I gently in the woman with the microphone said: Hello, I'm his wife.
the other did not speak, hung up.
this time her husband to entered the room, watching the two of us, it seems a little nervous, somewhat at a loss of standing still, I put the phone to her husband, he said: just a man called me and I'll pick up.
husband turned the next mobile phone, quickly glanced at the then very quickly they saw, we suddenly caught in a very awkward position. father poured boiling water in, surprised asked: how?
trip down the stairs, said her husband, her mother seems to understand what angrily said: you have to dare to go downstairs and you should not go home.
the atmosphere was very tense at home, her husband stood Gengzhebozai, father did not know what happened, her mother a person back to the room gone, as if crying. I sat on the bed in silence tears, her husband said: You've had with mom?
I did not speak, in fact I said nothing, her mother is a very intelligent person know what happened. hard for the elderly, said here is a very open-minded about her mother is also very good woman, she treated me like a pro, like daughter.
at this time the doorbell rang and his father opened the door to , told her husband that was to come out.
door of the woman.
husband out of the room, her mother came out, was silent for a while, burst suddenly heard the woman cry, wah-wah's said a lot of words probably meaning that I am sorry I do not know your parents at home, but I came and said clearly, and I was pregnant, I'm really sorry, really sorry.
I was sitting on the bed, chest bouts of badly.
things happen very fast, today Monday, I work as usual, last night I went to the hospital IV drips, has accompanied her mother, has been in front of me to tears, said the workers of iniquity, the infusion room of people watching the two of us, not may be that people know me and her friend in need is a pair of mother and daughter now, but who can think of.
I have some surprisingly calm about who to take to a certain degree of suffering, a bit numb. husband over there I did not call to ask how the past, and today my husband has been texting back, as:
very, really, forgive me hh , even though you do not have the right to hh , can not do this, forgive me hh know should not go back, how can I do.
all I know is: the woman (what is called purple bar) is the husband (or call him H bar, called her husband suddenly felt very uncomfortable) and the University alumni, that is, he is a frequently mentioned to me that a lot of good business relationship between the male customers mm think I have to laugh here, actually used a male name on the phone instead of her, and every day they have telephone contacts , but I have no doubt that trust.
this purple is now the single, some time ago broke up with her boyfriend, Anyang, Henan, now two months pregnant, is my husband.
the rest I knew nothing.
I'm basically calm down, has been to restrain myself not to cry, and think that is really no grace, but not mind a mess, and always have the feeling the feeling of palpitations, I'm just puzzled why he performance in the previous point are not, I believe he made it immediately after exposure to break up, perhaps the day No. 8, and purple can not stand, 9, went downstairs to my house to see him, but I answered the phone She simply 破罐子破摔, came upstairs and H, the results did not expect the elderly are also at home.
still a mess, how can I do?
I always thought he was good around people's evaluations of his very good. summed up the sense of obligation is very, very optimistic, cheerful, very smart,
we are fellow known since childhood, but late into the night after the call, both parents are more familiar with the love for three years, married so many years, but I really do not know, how could such a thing, it is not understand.
I am an only child, but definitely not the kind of spoiled girl, my parents grew very harsh. Results has been good, skip class, but also a good university, Shanghai graduate, now a fairly well-known state-owned enterprises in the work of the year looks is one of the best in class. can be said that conditions are not bad, I just want to know what is in the end derailed him that I care about him or what not.
but I am still do not think clearly, so much time we have been very good, without any exception, have to deal with both sides began to admire his ability to play , is indeed intelligent people.
he just send text messages over the:
I have a good time for me to solve, I just hope you do not refuse me, see your cold face, I almost have collapsed. , did not let him take me home, their subway back. usually are his to pick me up from work and rarely take the subway, my work place in Xujiahui, the MTR to be about 40 minutes, watching the cars full of people There are many couples, I suddenly thought, how many of them sense of the word, or how many lovers hh head to explode.
he went home early than I am, I am the door when he is sitting in the living room couch to smoke, to see my father immediately went up after the door is: you're back ah. He was sitting on the couch watching at me no response, the father scolded a few words, say no listen carefully, is probably that I look back how not to meet, sit there and pretend.
her mother slept in the room, hear me call me back in, say a long passage, could hear my tears under the rain.
mother said a lot, but very clearly structured, the effect is such:
1, in this case, all his mistakes, her mother said firmly, and I stood side. Do not say that if H I together with that woman, she would not identify the son, not to recognize that women do wife, I was her only young married woman, the only daughter.
2, hope I can secure good health care , this time not to take things too hard.
3, temporarily I hope I do not tell my parents said, because her mother think this happened to her son she felt no face. The most key thing is that I forgive him once.
old man said when I first started to cry, because any case, I believe that these words are from the heart her mother, she did say so to my wife's was moved to do when it comes to the final that when her mother was crying and said she was no party to teach the child, do not know how to give birth to such a Niezhong, do such shameful things, but also each other's stomach get bigger.
when I say mom do not be angry Do not furious body, that may be I did not think the pressure of his work, so that his heart has been transferred, in any case he is your son, I can not the husband but you can not live without the son.
mother to wipe tears.
back to his room, I open the computer, the desktop or my pictures of him last year in Xiamen, to feel particularly funny, he was facing such a desktop and another woman flirting hh
send text messages he had just come, said: Today I slept a small room, please, take cover quilt, do not catch a cold, what do call me, my phone will not shut down overnight, so you hh
I remember the New Year this year, he came home my parents to pick up the New Year, my little nephew was there, in the car that he took After years together to a spa, also deliberately asked if I wanted to go, he knew that years later I will certainly be very busy, I said I'm not going let them go, but smiled and said to accompany their parents.
In early August, when he went out the night, said that hot springs and customers to do business outside, I now know that time with them overnight hh
think and feel bad.
Violet was pregnant two months there , it is now March, so January is about sex more than once, even more hh
headache.
how can it be.
My husband and I are known since childhood, is the same area . But not very familiar with, but know that a person had the same primary school, when he turned out to be the school's radio station, in fact, is the next to the radio room after the two classes read a script, I was in the broadcast aunt room to do ground inspectors, so I often ran to play, will see him concentrate on that read manuscripts, sound good to hear, I remember aunt later recalled, his voice had do not know the specifications do not count as childhood, but the real love was when he graduated from university. I lower than his term, the different schools. do not know how to love, and his university entrance exam test in the same city, summer vacations have come back with him, it is so in love.
that time he was just looking for a job, everything is unsatisfactory, I take him for a house, play ground floor, each to his weekend cabin rental , the school bus to his home, along the site I can now back down. At that time he was very optimistic that Tiandaochouqin, everything will be fine, he is a very smart boy, very quickly adaptable, business savvy well, people are very sense of obligation is the one that usually do not study, quizzes, small play, playing exams, grades can test to about ten. work is the same, very caring to me.
fact, we in love with each other before the lovers have had, for various reasons to break up, at this point, we are understanding of the rarely mentioned, that those who'd thank the past, created a mutual love of their own now.
Think about the feeling a little introspective.
has been a good marriage, between parents and in-laws have been getting along very well. We are now the cause of the initial stage, having been good, but ready in another two years to have children, occasionally mentioned a few times, but still feel young, not ready to have children ready.
the purple, his alumni, I do not know specifically how.
He said she is a particularly simple girl, also an only child at home. the pregnancy, he did not expect, that long time I wanted out, but had not the heart to say good is the last time, there is no use of protective measures, emergency contraception that will eat medicine. but I always do not want to believe, because I feel that if the last time, he will not as easily still QQ, and she fooled around like that.
listen to his tone was love and affection, very guilty.
I laughing.
now I can basically calm down a little.
I would like to talk with him tonight, I just want to confirm the fact that he loves me still loves her.
But I think, even if he said he loved that I am, what I can, and I forgive him Why?
Stefanie sang a song, the lyrics are saying: There is a brave, called to forgive.
expect the flood of tears here uncomfortable.
dialogue he and I have.
2008-03-11 11:04:09 My husband
in you?
2008-03-11 11:09:08 fairier
grace. < br> 2008-03-11 11:09:27 Where do you husband
2008-03-11 11:09:31 fairier
company
2008-03-11 11:09: What to eat her husband
37?
2008-03-11 11:09:55 My husband
health? remember to take medicine.
2008-03-11 11:10:07 fairier < br> en 2008-03-11 11:10:44
husband can make me say I'm sorry you.
2008-03-11 11:10:48
I know sooner or later her husband will be, you know, but did not expect so soon.
2008-03-11 11:10:59 fairier
I just want to ask a word, you love her?
2008-03-11 11:11:03 my husband < br> is not love.
2008-03-11 11:11:12
do not love her husband.
2008-03-11 11:11:19 fairier
it is still a bit of love always have feelings for it.
is not so clear I want to ask, I just want to know.
2008-03-11 11:11:32
you do not like her husband. You know I The only place my heart is still left to you, the past is, today is the future also.
2008-03-11 11:11:54 fairier
except only that position, you still have to others position.
par with others I have to enjoy the same man.
This is not a rule, you are wrong.
2008-03-11 11:13:03
her husband who is too simple and too extreme, I can not do nothing about them.
children are innocent.
2008-03-11 11:13:21 fairier
you want the child was born?
2008 - 03-11 11:13:26 I am now confused
her husband, but I will persuade her to send their children destroyed.
unable to have children.
But she insisted like born.
2008 -03-11 11:13:40 fairier
I do not want to hear.
I believe you once, you come to me to solve the re.
solve when I come home.
I do not want to see you, see anyone.
2008-03-11 11:14:06 Do not please my husband
?
I'm in pain.
give me time.
I remember he asked me that if we have met a marriage can not control yourself who will be how to do. I had told him to smile, if you having an affair with another woman, I would kick you kick, the money does not give you, the house is not for you, the car is not for you, children do not give you, make you never see me again.
I really have this impulse. < br> Many of my friends asked what I wanted, I now think of cool, I want the former kind of mutual trust, mutual feeling of love, but I know the feeling is definitely not go back.
Whether he and she had no feelings, I am going to do not want these problems, although he did not himself admitted, but I know he and she must be feeling, let me awful it is here, why I normally do not see it at all, is his I was too stupid or too clever.
these days I'm not ready to go home, go to a girlfriends who lives in two days, when he resolved, come to me when.
he and father had just called me the.
mother was sick, a bad heart.
I said, I just you a result, you pay the decisive work out, give me a result, no matter what the outcome, you all right, to me. I do not want to say in the other.
be honest, I want a divorce.
but the vocabulary is too heavy.
is not very sensible?
how can I do.
particularly want to say here, I suddenly had a feeling his.
when I was in college, loved a teacher, he has a wife, a year-old daughter. but I never talk to him that, I had certainly did not know the results of this love, I can not betray my conscience to break up another family.
special feelings I was single-minded people, that time was only concerned to go to like him, but do not restrain myself more than my things, that teachers treat me very well, he always comments my job a lot, also like a chat in his office playing darts. will go to dinner together, but each meal will call on when classmates.
I do not know why she would so like him, respect him, so love him a whole university. do not think this kind of unrequited love how painful, no matter how silly I am until her husband was with me right now.
graduation, I asked him to leave a message on my yearbook. He took them all night the next day give it back to me, and above the pain, then let me first Excitement quickly to the feelings of this university for four years, to cry a roof, is a poem Hsi Mu-jung, I remember, said: , guilt and remorse, always deeply planted in the hearts of post-separation. Tsung Hui Rulan girl you are, I think you should know that my heart from fear, are the United States, the future bright, you have a better future than I more happy end. past I have never spoken of him, I just think that this is my love, you can love, but the responsibility and obligation to make you do something against their conscience, not something worthy of its own, worthy of others family to be worthy of the future.
I do not know how to think purple is, I think she must know he is home, you can love my husband, love in my heart, I do glory as proof of He's good, but since a family, let you back away.
when I received a text message, it should be purple.
He also loved me, and we have very much in love, before you. but that he loved me more than love you, I know, I have self-knowledge, I will leave. But the children I must leave, please, I returned to my home, no longer bother you, please do not blame H, he is innocent, that I cannot help. I'm sorry, I only wanted to say. We have very much in love, before you I want peace, I want peace.
I do not want to reply to this message
I want to respond to my question?
I suddenly remembered one thing.
is to him a lot of accounts, online accounts, including what the mailbox are gzn followed by a string of numbers I do not understand, similar to gzn12345, gzn1980, gzn1314 so, remember that time I asked him a joke, what is the meaning of this letter, he said, casually playing the keyboard .
girl named Violet lemon high net, in turn, the spelling of each word is gzn.
feel kind of felt cheated.
in my memory, he had four years of college love, but I had never interfere.
not want to know too much about his past.
these accounts is a long time ago, and my memory is vague, but now he has a World of Warcraft online game accounts, absolutely gzn ****'s, playing for many years.
this girl named Violet rather high? or something.
chaos, I guess.
afternoon he came to the company to find me, four more than he and I go out, coffee shop downstairs in the company, confirmed that he derailed from the fourth day, the first time we sit down face to face serious about this matter.
but the result is very bad, I know a lot I do not want to know things, it is cruel.
things happen very quickly, which I really fell in four days what is a flood of tears.
me and he used Since the days of the causes and effects. is a question and answer. He has been smoking, said the company had put aside the things down, he just wants things around the house whole-hearted resolve.
started when I asked him, the answer a cruel: the beginning of June last year.
I asked a silly how many times did you love the question, and i regret it. the results of his answer made me even more crazy: to remember.
purple and he did not love before, but when he first came to the school freshman like the girl, he had to pursue him, but she was rejected, because at that time she had a boyfriend has been working because of this, his low for a time. (I have the impression that, when I read the third year, to get advice on university entrance examination, etc., have talked to his feelings, he said a bad mood during that time, the body is also bad and I try to comfort him, he was sent back home a big bag specialty back) I asked him that account is not her name, he hesitated and said yes, saying that they will be used not used to change.
I asked him how and purple began. He said, purple graduation graduate students, please eat at the school gate, just go back to school when he participated in a forum, was there to eat, it came on. two people leave each other the phone number and MSN, was contacted, that violet and separated for a long time that her boyfriend, said at the time he pursued her, Yikusitian, it is so together.
I asked him if he loves she hesitated a second or two, said he had loved, and now do not love.
sure I asked you?
determined he had no hesitation.
As I said why do not love together.
His answer made me feel a little laughing: To make up for the year, in order to prove himself.
I asked you to prove anything, prove that you attractive, she regretted that there was no choice for you? my tears pan out out.
he would no longer speak.
I asked, that purple love you. He hesitated say that love it.
purple is indeed pregnant, as this is the last time useless measures I do not want to ask questions, and I know he must have lied, thought he was derailed from now, his body of the shuttle in which two women, indirectly tarnished my faith and trust, I feel very dirty and very painful.
I asked him how the child intends to do. He said he had been coordinated. asked him what coordination, coordination of a kind that make each person's injury ...
No comments:
Post a Comment